I apologize to everyone for not posting in a week or so and also let me apologize if this post turns out to be illiterate tripe. I just got out of the hospital and also lost a relationship that I should have let go along time go but that is how love is.
Let me say that I neither care who's fault it is nor do I care who did what to whom. I was past all that a long time ago as I was hoping to make a new start with my ex-boyfriend of now. With all the things that has happened to me within the last few days I just want to wish him well and leave the conversation about that situation at that.
You know there are a few things I want to reminisce on that really blows my mind. My friend Bryan tried to tall me better but I would not listen and I am not just talking about relationships, I am talking about life. I just wanted to have a life that means something, you know. I never wanted to get caught up in so much drama or melodramatic mess. I just wanted my life to have some smooth edges to it but never wanted to cut anybody like a razor. I always saw myself in a relationship and life with someone that gives a damn about what happens to me and not wandering because I had no destination to go go.
There is a large part of me that wonders "What did I do to deserve what I recently endured?" I have decided to take my time and make sure I get the events rights because the last week and a half feels like a blur, but the ending up in a hospital part went by in slow motion. I just wanted to blog and let everyone know I am ok, I think and now it looks like I am single again. It is not the scariest thing in the world but it is better than being the sucker or an all day lollipop.